It has been a little over three years since I started on adoption journey. To be completely honest, I thought, for sure, I would have my little nugget by now. I had chosen the age and gender that was completely opposite of the popular choice for Haiti. I have to remind myself that I put this journey in The Lord's hands from the beginning, and it's time I allow let myself be calm knowing that He will bring us together at the time we both are meant to meet and fall in love.
A lot has happened in my life since I started this amazingly emotional journey. My heart, mind and soul have been taken so many different places. Places I never imagined going, yet found that I can't see my life now without having gone there. I have since met some incredible people, people that I now call friends. I have found a new depth of friendship with those I have been friends with for a while and some friends/supporters I have never met in person, yet they share the excitement with me each time I talk or chat online with them. What an amazing path I am on, what amazing people I have found to be a part of my journey and my life.
With that being said, I take you into the update you have all been asking about. Not to say it's one you want to hear, yet it's where we are in the process. Be strong my friends, it's your strength that continues to keep me mentally and emotionally moving forward in this.
I received word that a few of my documents are about to expire, which means I get to update, re-notarize and re-submit them to USCIS for an extension approval. Included in this is getting fingerprinted again (4th time), Update my employment letter, new doctors letter (should be interesting since my doctor retired in November), updated home study, bank letters, retirement documents, tax returns.
When I received the email with this information my heart sank, it felt like a weight was added on to my shoulders. "Why is this happening?", my mind shouted inside my head. Why is this taking so long? Why, when I started this journey, did I feel like it was going to just go so smoothly? Maybe because it wasn't my idea, it was a feeling placed inside my heart and I went with it. What is this journey teaching me? It's amazing what happens to ones self when you ask yourself questions like this. You begin to find the answers in those you have chosen to be around you. They give you answers to questions they didn't know you had.
When you have friends and family suggesting we do a fast to maybe help with the process, one sits up to take notice. The support I get is unbelievable. Members of my faith, members of other faiths, some who don't really have a particular faith (yet believe in a supreme being), some I don't know their beliefs at all. The one thing I do know, is that they are on my side, they are supporting me the only way they can. I have been luckier than any one else on this earth with the number of people that have come into my life as a result of this journey.
So with all of that being said, I turn to you my friends, family, distant supporters of Kayleen's Kid Quest, for help.
I am going to hold a fast 6/13 - 6/14. I would like to invite all of you to join me in this.
As I begin my fast I will be praying for those who work in the adoption process in Haiti and the USA, that their minds and hearts will be filled with the answers they need to move files forward (not just my file, but all). I will pray they will figure out a procedure that will allow files to move more swiftly and allow these waiting children to go to a loving family, a little quicker. I pray my heart, mind and soul will be comforted and find the patience I seem to have lost along the way.
I know everyone's faith is a little different so if you choose to join in the fast, you can go as long as your faith (and or body) tells you to. If you don't/can't fast, just pray. If you don't/can't pray, just send me good thoughts.
Thank you seems so small to the many who have supported me, but thank you is what I offer at this time. I may have to plan a U.S. Tour when I get him so all of you can meet what you helped my obtain.
Kayleen's Kid Quest continues.....
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